Mark Chaney and me

I'm Gonna Get You Eddie Raven

OMG, I've finally found it. This song brings joy to my
heart.

I remember after Russ took me to Sacramento to get my things listening to this song over and over. I came to see you in jail before they sent you to prison and I remember missing you like crazy.

I remember picking up the phone to 'I'm Gonna Get You' playing. You were
determined, weren't you? You didn't care what obstacles were in your way and I
was at a very vulnerable time in my life.

It was right after Randy was murdered that you walked into the office and we met. I will never forget. I was your 'mark' after all and you were going to take me, weren't you? You never figured it would turn out the way it did.

I remember every Wednesday meeting up with you after Weight Watchers and we always played like children. It was fun and dramatic and it was wonderful. I remember once in a motel jumping on the bed in my cobalt blue jammies and laughing like kids. My 40 years to your 22 and it all seemed to be seamless in our love.

You have an incredible personality and I will always cherish the smiles and the belly laughs you gave me.

You intrigued me. I remember it was right when the ATM machines first came out and you were all into the new technology and how to manipulate the system. Even after me filing bankrupcy I was never angry at you for what you did to me. I even remember going to the sheriffs office in Saratoga and the police being baffled by how you pulled it all off. They were incredulous when I told them about all the bad checks at the casinos in Nevada. OMG!

You gave so much and you were so passionate and our time together means so much to me even now.

I remember the song 'I Will Always Love You' and me mouthing that through the bars when I came to meet you in jail. It was so very horrible to lose you that way and to miss your passion and your ways. Now that I'm listening to Whitney singing it, I want to go ahead and put Dolly's version here as well as they both meant so much to me at the time.

I Will Always Love You Whitney Houston

I Will Always Love You Dolly Parton Singing to Burt Reynolds

You always had such a harsh demeanor with others but you were so caring with me. I didn't realize until the night the cops came just how much you really cared. You could have taken me to prison with you but you didn't. You told the cops that I was totally innocent in it all. I guess in some ways I was but in other ways, I knew. STOCKHOLD SYNDROME at it's best I s'pose.

You came back in my life thru Edward a few years ago and it was
very hard to send you away. I remember the wonderful times we had.
There were hard times as well but the good times far outweighed those.

I was always in awe of you. You were indeed a handful but the
things you gave me will linger with me forever.

I don't think you expected to fall in love with me. I think you
thought you could leave me as easy as the rest but that wasn't the
way the cards played out, was it?

I remember the night in Vacaville and you carrying me as your bride
out of the bar. You had shared with mostly everyone there that we
were married. I was so happy that night and in my heart, I think
for the night at least 'We were married.'

I can honestly say that you made me happy for most of our time
together. I loved the way you were and although there were times I
didn't like you, I always loved you.

I knew you were a con-man and I believed it when I was told you
were a sociopath.......... except in that part of my heart that I didn't
believe.

You were all about screwing the system and altho at the time I
didn't know it, I was very similar to you. I respected your wonderful
mind and I liked all the attention you gave me.

I know when we talked last I told you I couldn't handle US as I
know that you could never change. You had been wounded in the worst way
and even though I knew you would never change, I knew in your heart
you were sincere in our love.

Everything about us was dramatic and I loved that. (Except maybe
when they had you down on the ground with a gun to your head.....
that wasn't fun.)

I keep all the attention and drama inside my heart and when I need
to feel the totality of US, I bring them out.

I will never forget you walking in and talking that car salesman
out of the Caddy. It was incredible and I was in awe of your power
over people. It was exciting and no matter what, I got a rush out of it.
How did you do it? You never gave a penny to those people and yet we
drove away in a new Cadilac???

The only part of you that I really couldn't handle was when you
Marked one of us..... one of 'the people' that was caught up in the
system. I remember once when you threatened an older man and that
really was unacceptable in my eyes.

I talked to a shrink after all was said and done and he felt you
may have physically hurt me or even killed me had we gone on much
longer. I guess that's neither here nor there as we ended.
(Besides, shrinks are the establishment and he probably just wanted
his money.)

Anyways, I wanted to write this down after finally finding the
song. It always made me smile. It was soooooo much a part of us and I
will always remember it with the best of my memories.

I hope you're happy in what ever it is you're doing and maybe one
day on the other side of this harsh time you and I will maybe catch a
glimpse of one another. I hope you know that 'I will always love
you'.

I can't believe it's been 20 years ago that 'WE' happened.

I can never remember that bar's name in Vacaville. I think I
blocked it out as the sweetness of it always makes me weep.

I remember the bar............... Brigadoon (It's 2010 and this all happened in 1988. OMG!)

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